Lis Princess World

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Sunday, August 30, 2009, 11:00 PM

12 Aug - need about 1 wk to recover from wisdom tooth extraction.

24 Aug - kanna bacteria that causes throat infection followed by flu like symptoms

dare not weigh myself cos i know i'm getting thinner by the rate i'm going. 1st wk cannot eat gd food due to e pain and swell on e left side of my gum. just when i tot that i could be eating 'normally' again, there i was sick as i caught e virus that some of my colleagues has gotten too. didn't take mc but only went to see e doc and have e medication. endless antibiotics acting in my body.

however, i'm glad that during this period, i've enjoyed myself in 2 activities organised by my colleagues (thou i'm supposed to be e organiser).

there's e BBQ on 22 Aug, which involves many of my colleagues' families and also those who brought their hubby or bf along. gd time to have fun and interact with each other outside office hr. Jenny (JC's gd fren) was a gd host and committee for this BBQ. She has initiated e pre-event meeting to discuss on e food items and quantities to buy, booking and paying for e BBQ pit, bought the satay and otah on e day itself, did e pre-BBQ preparation of food together with some of us in e kitchen and even during e BBQ itself, she was doing most of e job, those who were having e chicken wings and all, most credit goes to her as well. that's why when they said i'm e organiser, i really think i cannot 'crown this title'. glad to see my ex-colleagues like RC, YL and CH. it's a bundle of joy to see many bringing their kids along. they've all grown up as they look different from e pics or from what we had last seen. e games committee, Cynthia and Keith also did a gd job in coming up with fun games. for it to turn out so fun, i have to say that everyone did a great job for being so sporting! as usual, there's some leftover BBQ food and we decided to play Zhong Ji Mi Ma to finish up e food. I can't believe that my colleagues were so ON for this... for those who dun wanna eat, they came up with another forfeit, blowing e balloon until it burst. omg... only JC's hubby was playing that. it's funny bcos he was e one getting e forfeit but he's not scared and it turned out that we were all covering our ears. anyway, I ended up being e 'ultimate winner' again. it's either i kanna e number or e person beside me didn't guess e correct number. LOL. i can't even finish e beehoon and still have to dabao some food back. lol. fun fun day!

Thurs - 27 Aug: went to KBOX chinatown with Keith, Cynthia and Cheng Lan. got there to find out that it's actually ladies' night that day. Keith's fren also joined us after a while, and 5 of us were having lotsa fun singing. as i was sick, my voice got hoarser but i still enjoyed e session lots. can't believe that we actually sang from 7.30pm to 12.30am when e next day is a working day. power! 3 of us got e ladies' night doorgift which includes many vouchers ranging from massage, manicure and pedicure, faceshop, etc... to free sample size facial cleanser, hair dye, facial mask, sanitary pads, etc. really cool. was drizzling by e time we left. few cabs were waiting right outside Lucky Chinatown by e time we went out. reached home in 10mins. whoohoo~

next day, as expected... voice cannot make it.. haha.. luckily it's not mth end, can go back home to rest... but i naughty. i chose to go out and have dinner with my besties, Jas n WX. took e train to Clementi and meet them at City Vibe. went to e jap ramen restaurant. Shared 10 plates of sushi together before our main course were served. they were having gd promotions on e sushi, for e normal white plates, it's 99cents per plate. ordered abalone ramen which was a disappointment even though it's a MUST TRY item in their menu. i was still coughing, so i opted out the chicken or fried stuffs and ended up choosing smth i dun like. boo. whereas they ordered e rice set which was so much better. consist of soup, rice/sushi, beef/chicken, chawanmushi, mango pudding. soo nice =) chatted alot with them and reached home b4 12am~ thanks so much for listening to my rantings. haha!

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Sunday, August 23, 2009, 2:36 AM

i have to constantly remind myself what's right and what's wrong.

sometimes i really hope that all these is just a nightmare and everything is back to normal but i have to bring myself back to reality. things have changed. what shdn't be done has been done OR what shd have been done is finally done. either one applies depending on how u look at it.

i have not regretted anything so far but i didn't know that love can be so fragile. i will just leave everything to fate and destiny.

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thots

, 2:08 AM

although i feel really sucky bcos of all these recent happenings, i still thank God for giving me a chance to experience all these. if i dun meet this person, i may not know know what's e meaning of true love. a challenge in life is always gd if u can overcome e obstacle bcos u will then learn from it. if life is all smooth, we won't be able to truly understanding the word 'cherish' bcos we will still take things for granted.

going thru a breakup and getting over someone u like w/o getting into a serious r/s is 2 entirely different things. i can never do it alone w/o my loved ones' support. the love addiction is too strong and e withdrawal symptoms are unbearable at times. for my own gd, i still have to get rid of this 'drug' no matter what.

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urugh...

Saturday, August 22, 2009, 7:34 AM

i hate myself for being so soft! what to do when u meet with someone who really no longer care?! i told margaret and she says that nobody understands him more than i do, but i believe what i see too. when there's no actions from him and everything he does reminds me of e past, incidents that i have brought up in our arguments... then shd that make me give up more on him?

i have e dilemma of wanting to get over this and move on, but i do hope to give him a 2nd chance by forgetting e past and start ALL over again... is it possible with his character?? i hate to say that it's a no and i am stuck here again!! dear, why are u so cruel towards me and our love?

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sorting out my tots...

Thursday, August 20, 2009, 12:17 AM

im glad to have pple who came to me and support me even w/o me going to them. it's smth that i really appreciated. it is as though i'm detached from e world and it's nice having those pple back in my life again. e current support is greatly needed and i'm beginning to be opened up to more things and seeing things in a different angle.

it has been a wk.. i have alot of internal conflicts inside me. i can't do the things i want to do by following my heart anymore. i have to use logical way to do things right now.

i have to learn things from the hard way but it's okay. i still get to learn and one day it will become one of my life experiences. from this incident, i'm starting to reflect on things that i never really think about in e past, feeling that there's so much to do and so much to improve on. what could have been done to avoid all these together.

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where is e love?

Thursday, August 13, 2009, 6:45 PM

Extracted my wisdom tooth and that left me with a swollen left cheek.
Guess not only my cheek was swollen, i believe my eyes are much more swollen than that.
Besides my dad, I think I've not cried so much over someone like this.
Streams of tears uncontrollably fell as we talked thru it.
I thot we were so serious abt it back then
or am I the only one thinking that way?
I agree that the process of it is impt
but I do care abt e ending as well.
Even if I choose to ignore all other stuffs that are hindering us,
I wouldn't be able to accept this particular one.

I won't say that there's any right or wrong in a r.s.
i won't play the blame game as well.
I can't force my thoughts into any person's mind.
I have my own principles in life too.
To one person, he was my world, my everything.
But my world has chosen to swallow and spit me out.
I dun believe in platonic friendship.

This shall be e last entry on this.

P/S Thanks for all pple who show concern for me. =)
*Big hugs*

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A tough decision MADE.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009, 11:59 PM

It's time to let go. No doubt, i'm crying myself a river but it's better than having to go thru this again and again.

A golden qn with an obviously shocking reply has given me enough reason to put this to a stop. There's no right or wrong. I dun wanna play the blame game anymore. I won't want to earn credit by saying I've done alot to this r/s. I know there's many things I can improve on. But I think it's impt for e other party to do smth to keep the r/s alive too. I dun sense that much though. A long r/s doesn't mean anything if there's no maintenance at e end of e day. Even if there's a gd foundation, it may not work eventually.

What's impt are e lessons learnt thru out this r/s. I have to start believing that it doesn't mean that I've found the Mr Right and he will stick with me forever. In this world, not everything is so perfect. Perhaps it's not right from the start.

There's no platonic friendship like I've stressed before. Move on.

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Batam: short getaway!

Sunday, August 2, 2009, 11:59 PM

1-2 Aug 09: went Batam with Margaret n family and also Janise n hubby.

A totally relaxing trip after my HKG trip. total spending for this Agent Familarisation 2D1N trip is less than $150 for ferry, seafood lunch, buffet dinner, hotel and 3 hrs of massage. So cheap~

Everything is not bad except that the massage is not as shiok. Not my 1st time in Batam but I've tried Indonesian and Thai Massage b4, even in SG, those normal facial salon provides better massage skills than this!! We were saying it's more of getting 'touched' by them and at e end of it, dun feel anything at all. We all fell aslp during e massage. Dislike e body scrub too! The cold liquid that was applied before scrubbing our body was smth i hate! we were in an air-conditioned room and it's making me shiver. worst part comes... the steam bath! we were in an unisex room. 1st i found Janise and her hubby in the same room. The room was smoky and all.. but we were shocked when we spotted each other. It's so unsafe cos we were only wrapped in a piece of bath towel. next, another indian guy came in too. imagine if my frens left the room already, will be me and e guy in e room. GOSH! how can they even provide such service... =.= guess only the last part of e foot reflexology is gd. one more thing is that they can't even speak English but Melayu. I have problems communicating with them. =(

The buffet food for e dinner was so-so only. Janise's hubby was lucky, won e 2nd prize for e lucky draw. another 2d1n stay in Batam resort. Bday luck! can buy 4d liao.. haha.

Disco - nobody one. music not right for us. not too 'old' not too 'young'. at 1st i was so excited, even included a dress in my bag for this special disco party. but my colleagues also nvr bring any.. magaret swopped her massage time till 9-12pm.. so she couldn't join us for the party. 3 of us went for 2 hrs of KTV instead since there's a room available. Sang from 11pm-1am! Lotsa Mandarin, Cantonese and English oldies. I enjoyed myself lots. Finally heard Janise singing with her hubby. Dun expect too much from e video... not original singers. We wanna luff at e video and some even jammed when we sang halfway. not gd. it's a treat from her hubby for the ktv and drinks, i was paiseh but accepted graciously.

Next day, we woke up early for e buffet breakfast. nice one. i luffed till tears dropped when Janise' hubby told the in-charge abt how surprised he was with the bday cake surprise given by Janise. OMG. it's obviously a made up story saying how surprised he was until he couldn't slp. where got so exaggerating! haha.. then he said he thot all e rooms also have the cake for special guest like us & he tot he wanna give one more star to the hotel, which made me luffed even more. back to the breakfast, it was gd, it was a very sumptuous spread!

Checked out... and dunno why we became the last 3 to board e bus. -.-'' they have brought the timing earlier. they brought us to the shopping ctr and told us not to buy too much things there cos it's not as cheap as the other one at Mega mall. saw a stall selling very cute tee - 3 for 100000 rupiah, it's like 3 for SGD15.00! how can i miss that! i bought 2 and Janise bought 1. =) went to have coffee break too. slacking at e shopping mall for abt 1 and 1/2hrs.

Then they brought us to buy Polo Ralph shirts and dried stuffs at 2 different places b4 bringing us for Kelong seafood lunch. lunch was not bad... i love the crabs, sweet and sour fish, kang kong and their coconut drinks! =)

It's in their itinerary that they will bring us to another shopping mall which they also told us earlier on, but after lunch on the coach, they told us we couldn't go there anymore cos we only left with 1/2hr to shop. and they sent us back to the ferry terminal instead. it's bcos the tour guide brought another few pple in our grp for massage and got delayed before meeting us at e 1st shopping mall. haix.. not well-planned!

overall, i still enjoy this trip cos it's quite e 1st time going oversea trip with them besides our company trip. =)

11:59 PM.
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