just a call...
this morning received a call.e familiar voice, e same old feeling;
but things are no longer e same.
how far can e conversation go?
i tried to stay nonchalant.
there's already a line to be drawn between us.
i can't even cross that line anymore.
so what if his conversations include
lame things like me pretending to be his ****
to get some staff discount,
he might find it funny,
but i'm feeling sick abt it.
I dun wish to say e truth but e truth is that
i wish things would have been e same.
current's mindset is that i really dun understand
what's e point of keeping in contact?
in e 1st place, i dun even believe that
a platonic friendship would exist.
e interaction or need for each other
already cease long ago,
it's been a one-sided thingy most of e time.
i just find that the conversations we have
are becoming more and more superficial.
seriously speaking,
who needs this?!
"so long didn't hear from u,
wondering how are u doing?
... i'm still e same,
busy working, no time, no life..."
didn't he told me earlier before?
"we are still v gd frens,
when u need me,
come and look for me,
i'll be around."
but i find that we're more of strangers
and if i'm holding on to the previous words
and i'm e only one looking for him,
when i face any challenges,
then how abt him?
did he ever look for me to tell me anything?
i doubt he need me as a fren in e 1st place.
it's only when he has ample time on hand,
waiting for bus like he claimed
after sending his bike for servicing,
he would rem that he has my no.
and decided to call me.
well... i think it's absolutely fake.
how abt another stupid qn asked?
"when are we going to have lunch?"
wth? u know we aren't gg to do that
anymore and u still ask.
*give up*
10:59 PM.
